Am I to blame?

Inspired by The Great Gatsby and "Young and Beautiful" by Lana del Rey

I loved you after I thought I knew you
And not before
(No, never before)
I fell in love
I could have stayed there
But you went away
(I fade away)

Some nights I dream about us
And we're never more than friends
You found your One
She's perfect for you
I couldn't be
(I'd never be)

These days I think about you
I miss you, friend
(I need a friend)
But you're far away
I'm happy for you
Why did we fade?
(What made you leave me?)

I fell in love
I could have stayed there
But you went away
(I fade away)
I retrace our steps
There's nothing left here
I should go away
(Just run away)

Some nights I dream about us
And we're never more than friends
You found your One
She's perfect for you
Are you in love?
(Am I to blame?)

These days I think about you
I miss you, friend
(I need a friend)
Were we kidding?
We lost ourselves
(Do we go on missing?)

I fell in love
I could have stayed there
But no, not really
(Oh no, not really)
We were always fading

I wake up and know I'm alone here
Are you still sleeping?
(Was I just dreaming?)